Coldguy on Health

Hello again, first off I would like to say sorry to those I came off to as unusual for the past week or so lately I have been receiving messages and have had things done that I would not normally do and would like to apologize from the start.

So what happened?

Well ever since MAGfest this past January I have been a wreck body wise. Yes I am not in the pristine shape that many people would consider healthy but I am actively working on changing that (more on that later). So the biggest issue I have been having is stomach aches. Not your typical take some pepto bismol to make it go away kind, I mean pass out while stand oh god this pain feels bad.

As you can imagine I first tried to go and tough it out hoping it is temporary, however it was not not the case. So as you might imagine I then went to the Doctor. Doctor and I have had some issues in the past namely in respect with my parents. My Mom did not like the Doctor growing up some whenever I went for a checkup or a visit it was to the point answers to every question. Tell him or her what is wrong, be as descriptive as possible so that we can get medication and get out.

Needless to say as a kid it is hard to describe how you were feeling to an adult for the simple manner your vocabulary and your body had a different definition to go off of. When I have gotten older and discovered the power of WebMD I could get some definitions for these feelings, and also get scared for the threat of cancer.

So, I go to the doc, tell him what is wrong and he gives me some medication. First one did not do anything, the second one made me throw up...constantly, the third one made me fall asleep for 12 hours and not get me rest, and this forth one did the trick.

Thinking to myself "yay it is fixed after trial an error I can go on and be merry and live life again." Well...not quite. One of the side effects of the drug, which many people pointed out to me was depression and anxiety. Hoo boy I had those in spades and did not realize it, my motivation at work was not to get fired while at home not having the inspiration to do anything but sulk on the past and keep me from my duties at hand.

It did not hit me until a series of events and self reflections up until today that I was even acting this way until I pieced it together. For the record I rather go and have a bad stomach than a bad personality to you all. I called the doctor and he told me I could either take more medicine that is expensive and not covered, or try to do this cold turkey.

I am not an active guy, I have people that care for and support as much as I can as well as a stressful burden with family. I want to get better, I would like to wave a wand and simply make all of this go away so that I can enjoy life as much as I can. I think my body was trying to tell me a message all this time to calm down and take more of a break instead of being an AppleJack with everyone.

All in all I am trying to get better both physically and more importantly mentally there are going to be some roadblocks in the process and I am going to try my best to get through them as fast as possible. Who knows, I may share a tip or two on here about the recovery as for now I have laundry to do and need to finish that up.